d damned truth..

d thing she told me was dat jus d day b4 i said it to her...her best frnd proposd her ..and dey wer so close dat she cudnt say no to him..nw dat was a real heatbreak..really hit me rite in d middle of ma chest...bt dats was d truth and i had to live wid it..so being a very gud frnd of her at dat tym...i continued being her bestiee..i trie d to hide ma feelings...bt dey eventually used to show on ma face ...d pain was too much bear...bt i had to go on...den 1 day i sat up thnkin........ dis was d gal who tuk away ma breath at d first sight ...hw cud i let her go!!! she was mine and no matter who she was wid.. i loved her and dat was wat mattered...so from dat day on i tried to return to ma ownself...being wid her weneva she needed me ...running to her every tym she calld out ma name..and thus tym went on..

d next step..

well it had been days or maybe months bt ineva managd to say wat i had fuh her in ma heart...i jus kept thnkn if she wud break our frndship on dis den i wont b able to meet her as i did b4 so i thot it was bettr i didnt take it a step furthr...bt ma heart ddint allow me and dose words jus slippd off...well she tuk it lightly at dat tym...bt as days passd she realisd it was true and den finally 1 day she told me sumthng dat tore me apart...

days passed by and d incident was fuhgttn..and she returnd to herself...i neva did enquire abt wat happnd dat day...as days went on v became frnds...always lukin fr an opportunity to tease each oder..well fr her i was jus anoder guy in her lyf bt fr me she was everythn...so as our frndshp grew v gt to no mre abt each oder..and v xchangd numbers and...and thus startd our real talkings...v startd chattn and i startd becomin mre and mre open to hr...
v bcame so much addictd to each oder dat v used to start chattn in d morn..until lunch den a lil rest and den v wud chat till i wud fall of in her dreams...

so thus startd my love stry or bettr call our luv stry...days went on and v startd interacting..thanx to ma bst frnd cos v bth usd to tease her and she jus usd to get so annoyd..and give us angry glances...bt in d end she lukd beautiful evn as she gt angry on us..and thus v bcame jus frnds accrdng to her ideology..well i had no probs wid dat as long as i cud c her evryday..and dis went on for abt a week...well she was i cud say d best lukin gal in our class..and no doubt every boy had a crush on her..and miss popular had a charm tooo and dat made me fall for her...
den 1 day as i entered d class...i saw every 1 gathered around her...and der sat ma angel in d middle wids tears in her eyes..i jus cudnt stand d sight..bt neithr did i hav d guts to go and console her..cos i was neithr a gud frnd nor very close to her...so i jus cudnt help bt stare at her..evbdy was consolin her and den wid her teary eyes she gav me 1 glance...jus me and i cudnt luk away ...i was jus absorbed in her eyes..then se lukd away..and dat day all i did was sittn in d corner ,glancn at her ,each and every moment...nw it feels so dumb dat i didnt go to her...bt still i was dumb...and dats hw it continued...

for ma gal...

it was ma gals bday yestday ...so i hav startd dis blog for her...aftr spending d  best tym wid her wen i reachd hme i sat on ma balcony gazin at d sky...thoughts startd flown in ma mind and it tuk me to d first day i saw her...and it was jus magical..<3<3
it was in a tution class..it was as if sumbdy up der wantd us to meet cos dat day she had to stay up late cos she reachd a bit late..well i was new to d class..came der wid ma frnd..so i gt dat new boy glances frm evry1..bt ma eyes wer fixd on jus 1...well as ma first day i had to concntrate on wat d teacher was sayin..bt everytym she turnd around to attend oder students ..ma eyes wud automatically turn towards her ....thanx to ma introvert nature i cudnt muster up enuff courage to evn ask her name...so aftr d class endd...d 1st thng i did was ask ma frnd "whos dat gal ? ? "ma frnd being a frnd of her told me all dat he new abt her...and dat nite as i slept i was sure der was sumthng abt her dat was attractn ma attention to her...

no words to xpress wat i have in ma heart......
jus a thought dat no 1 can tear us apart....
ill b wid u weneva u need me..
to catch al ur tears baby believe me.........
well thnkn abt u last nite ...
i wrote sumthng give it a try...
I sat on ma window..
ma mind full of ur thoughts...
ma lyf lyk a slideshow.....
and d love for who i fought....
driftd in front of ma eyes...
all d truth and d lies...
and d sorrows and d pain...
and d tears dat fell nt in vain....

the memories brought a smile...
for d petty thngs we fite...
bt still as d moon goes up...
we curse our bad luck...
dat it didnt let us to b....
togethr jus u n me...

baby i neva knew...
dat i wud come so close to u....
dat separation of evn a second...
wud hurt me so much and.....
believe me m nt faking...
bt it feels lyk sum1's takin...
ma lyf away from me...
with all ma happiness and gleee...


wen u r aroundme...
i dont hav to pretend to b...
sum1 else to please u...
cos u ♥ me as i am ...and i ♥  u toooo...